How I received an E-Mail from Mother Earth that changed my life

One of the most important questions regarding Ayahuasca, in my opinion, is: what is it good for?, what am I going to receive from her?, how do I integrate and apply what she, the sacred plant Ayahuasca, has taught me in my daily life?

Before answering these questions I want to tell you about my relationship with the sacred medicine. How it all began, how I got in touch with it and what I have learned from it so far. Like many others I was also for many years feeling a deep emptiness within me. I tried in every possible way to fill it with people, places, experiences, material things of all kinds, parties, extreme sports, drugs and many more. 

At the age of 28 I could not stand my situation anymore and short story, I was presented with the opportunity to start a coaching process which I accepted.

So much emptiness inside that wanted to be filled

Without knowing it, I was enrolled in a 6 year process of preparation to meet again with the sacred plant. Throughout those 6 years, and under wonderful guidance, I had a walk through many facets of my being, I removed many layers that no longer served me, many others that never served me and also a good amount that were not even mine. I worked on many issues of my family system, personal and couple relationships, the relationship with my work and money, I went deeper looking for and understanding the roots of my beliefs as an individual and also those that we share as a collective. 

During those 6 years, and several very strong falls, led me to what many call “the spiritual awakening”, the most important moment of remembrance that I have experienced, remembering that I am much more than what my 5 senses can perceive, much more than this body, much more than this life.

At this stage I can accumulate a lot of learning, understanding, lots and lots of theory and concepts but something was still missing inside me, I knew many things now but the feeling of “emptiness” was still present, a feeling that kept me in a constant state of search, search that would guide me to travel. Too many beautiful things in my mind but still something missing in my heart.

At the end of 2019 began a journey that was initially planned in 3 months, a journey to south east Asia and my first visit to India. A journey that led me to meet new continents, new cultures, allowed me to see our many faces, ways of thinking, believing and living life. During the journey many more old beliefs kept falling, the feeling of lightness was increasing, detachment started to be more than a concept and started to be felt inside, many wonderful things happened but “something” was still missing, and the heaviest question of all: “What is my role in this life?”, I was in search of the well-known: Purpose, my purpose.

Finally, my first Ayahuasca Ceremony was waiting for me

In June 2021 the journey still continued, this time the search took me to Palomino, a small town in the department of La Guajira, Colombia. As soon as I stepped on Palomino without understanding it mentally, a very clear feeling invaded me: I arrived!

I knew I had arrived, I had no idea why but that hunch was enough motivation to stay. A few days later I received an invitation to an Ayahuasca ceremony, at that moment my heart answered a clear and resounding “YES”, and letting my intuition guide me, I signed up for my first ceremony, my first encounter, in this life, with the medicine, my reunion with Mother Earth. 

The night of my first ceremony is something I will always remember as the most special night of my life. I remember that I arrived calmly that night, the meeting was on a beautiful beach on the Guajira coast, we were a group of about 35 people, we were all sitting around the fire for a while, singing and preparing ourselves to begin the ceremony. Around 9pm Taita Salvador arrived, a being without equal, the messenger of Mother Earth who would guide me to where all the answers are.

That night, after a few minutes and a little physical discomfort, the medicine led me to experience the deepest love I had ever felt, difficult to describe with words but I could call it pure and unconditional love, that mesh that everything and everyone is made of, it unites us all and at the same time it is everything. For the first time in my life I could feel each person there as myself, in unity and absolute harmony with Mother Earth and all her magic. This was a completely new state for me, a feeling of fullness invaded me, nothing was missing.

My connection with the Taita and the experience of pure love 

A couple of hours before dawn I approached the Taita to share my experience but before I could say a word, he offered me the third cup of the night, respectfully and understanding the signal I took it without hesitation. After that drink I decided to share with the Taita my experience of how after searching everywhere for what I needed so much, believing that the answer was somewhere very high and far away, the medicine in our first meeting brought me to a state of absolute presence and connection that I had never experienced before. 

The Taita’s response was: That is exactly what we are, that feeling is the source of everything, the answer to everything. Love dwells in you, it is your essence, the essence of everything in this universe, and everything dwells in the present moment.

That answer was the last piece of the puzzle, what united and explained all the doubts that invaded me.That ceremony was full of messages and experiences that helped me to close the cycle that 6 years ago I had started, a night of “cleaning the house” and getting it ready to start a new life.

One of the questions I asked the sacred plant that night before starting the ceremony was, “What am I here for?”

This E-Mail from Mother Earth that changed my life

Hours before the ceremony I remember being sitted in meditation around 5:30pm, my intention was to connect with Mother Earth and express to her my 3 questions for that night, one of them was “What am I here for?” How Mother Earth responded to me is something that still amazes me, her magic and wisdom knows no boundaries. 

A month before that night I had a Reiki session, usually a couple of days after those sessions I receive an email from the girl who channeled that session with a whole summary, comments, practical tools and possible answers to my questions, but this time the e-mail never arrived. The day after the ceremony I was checking my mailbox when I found an email from the girl with whom I regularly do my Reiki sessions. 

The email starts with a message from her saying: “Dearest Jorge, I have been in a tangle these days and holding on because there was something I knew I had to wait to send you the email. There are things here that I don’t understand but this is for you”. 

That email was the highlight of my ceremony, in it were answered one by one all my questions in detail. The answer of Mother Earth to the question “What am I here for?” was: 

“When you are a spiritual being, a light being, your vibration is very high. However, when you lower your essence to inhabit a physical body, the vibration of the physical is very low, therefore, much of your essence cannot vibrate at that low frequency and it is not that you stop being yourself but, somehow, all that knowledge that you have without your physical body, inhibits it from entering matter. That is why we “forget” who we are and “forget” what we know, but as we evolve in our spirituality, we “remember” who we are and what we come for and what we know. For example, when certain information is revealed to you, deep inside you “already knew it”. In a way, this same thing that you are reading, you “already knew it”, right? we are only removing the veils that matter has put on us and we remember who we are and where we come from.

And that my dear is what you are doing in this beautiful little town.” I just had understood my purpose. “Remembering who we are and where we came from.”

The most shocking thing about this story is that I received this email before the ceremony, exactly at 5:32pm when I was in meditation connecting and expressing my questions to Mother Earth. 

Another great message here: The answers I have been looking for I have had them with me even before I asked, the answers to the questions I have not yet asked I also have them with me, I have had them since ever and they will be forever in my heart. 

At this moment I had made a very deep reconnection in my heart, I had remembered that unconditional love is the source of everything, we are all love.

Far from thinking that everything was finally over, I knew that this was just beginning. Now, this story may sound beautiful, wonderful and loaded with a lot of feeling, or at least it is for me, but that night also brought with it a message: it is time to take all this to daily life, to convert all this experience into action.

My way of integrating what I have received from Ayahuasca

How do I apply what the sacred medicine has taught me in my daily life?

This question is answered day by day, moment by moment. It is a constantly changing answer like life itself. Understanding and mainly feeling that unconditional love is from where we all come from is one thing, putting it into practice is something completely different. 

For a while I dedicated myself to observe because the sacred medicine continues to act far beyond the night of ceremony, it continues to deliver messages to us through many people and experiences, our task is to pay attention. 

During this period of observation I was very attentive to the origin of my feelings, thoughts, words and actions, every time something came up in me I wanted to understand where they came from, with what they were loaded with.

During this process I began to see an opportunity, there it was in front of my eyes, everything was very simple. I began to understand that I did not need to make an invention that would change humanity, I did not need to write a book and sell millions of copies to put into practice what the sacred medicine had taught me, the only thing I had to do was to live every moment from that unconditional love with which she allowed me to reconnect, to offer all my feelings, thoughts, words and actions as the maximum reflection of that love that we all are, that love from where we all come from, that love that dwells and exists unconditionally in this present moment.

So well, the messages that the sacred plant can give us are innumerable, the situations that she allows us to experience to heal and learn are beyond the reach of words, but if there is something that on this path I have been able to learn from her is that whatever we receive it was given to us to put it into practice in this here and now. 

The sacred plant invites us to return to the simplicity and purity of feeling, invites us to accept everything that has happened in our history, accepting it as part of the path and leaving it behind where it belongs, invites us to reconnect with the source that unites us all and to live from there, to live and act from pure and unconditional love.